Shadowed Gray

Clouds shadow you gray
Hiding the sun
She's ashamed
Of what was done
Beautiful home covered in snow
One open door
Greeting the cold
Mistake or better
Can't escape it's hold
And now she has to go

Clouds shadow us gray
There's nothing left to lose
Nothing we can say
You know the truth
It's written on your face
Written on the letters you left
Given up your family
Given up your friends
Who will you have
When the low road comes to an end?

Clouds shadow me gray
Hiding the sun
Ashamed, of what have I done?
Beautiful home covered in snow
One shut door
Behind my family
Behind my friends
Mistake or better
It's getting cold
Do I have somewhere to go?

Clouds shadow us gray
Do we see the hate?
Can we see the pain?
Compare or relate?
Is there more pain in leaving
Then there is in being left
Our hands stained with blood
Hearts ripped from our chests
For us there's never left

Better Not Have

have you found your new life
one without addictions and late nights
its too easy to give up, not even try
when your life has been labeled a lie
always looking over your shoulder
waiting for it to happen
can't dodge a shot from behind

You dont want others to know
where you are from?
better not have been there anyways
you dont want others to know
who you have loved?
better not of screwed them anyways
you dont want others to know
what you have done?
better not have done it anyways
better not have done it

wrong after wrong
night after night
you still have to learn
what it is to be right
learn from your mistakes
you can't make anymore
find out what this life is for

You dont want others to know
where you are from?
better not have been there anyways
you dont want others to know
who you have loved?
better not of screwed them anyways
you dont want others to know
what you have done?
better not have done it anyways
better not have done it
better not have done it

Beautiful Getaway (11/16/07)

You're so beautiful
Get away from me
I can't go on like this
Let you see me bleed
You're smile and persona
Great until you take away
Your morals and respect of self

The marks on your wrists says Pray for me
Pray for you I willRun away I must
Images of you in my mind
Chased away like wind moving dust

At your desire (6/20/07)

this is a scene i know all to well
when is it going to happen
time will only tell
ive seen these signs before
followed by a closing door
you say you want to be free
what happened to you
and your feelings for me

now you seem so distant
you never look at me
the pain you give is instant
just let me in on your secret
please dont make me seek it
you've known it from the start
you're getting closer
to finally breaking my heart

any pain you aquire
given to me at your desire
your problems become mine
i can be the one to cry
what did i do wrong
how can i make it better
you're always more than sad
all i do is make you mad
let me give you my light
so you can begin to shine
ill stay in the dark
and know that it's time

10/27/10 Quote

It's easier to see into the light from the dark than it is to see into the dark from the light...

Erased

The Autumn of trees fall to the grass
Oh how the seasons come and they pass
She's a lost soul writer and nothing to show
White picket fence and a porch table note
A declaration, a direction for her to go
A misinterpretation, no elation
He finds her in a different state
She lets him stay
But she's moving again, moving again. go

Another page ripped from the record books
Omitted from the story, No Second look
It isn't working now, it never worked then
She's writes everything she wants in ink
She plays him, thrown in the water, sink
She writes his story but drops the pen
Picks up a pencil and thinks of when
Never had a tear for him, only in another's bed
She needs to hide him, only deserving of lead.

Handled

Broken down lost his crown
What will become of him
Settle down lose the frown
Hatred bred by sin
Life hits him hard
But its never the last card
Dealt in the gamble
It kills him but
Less than he can handle

Look inside yourself for no one else, it's you
What once was lost is always found within, it's true
Rise up into the mirror, read the face
Break down what's left and rebuild in it's place

Rise up and show your smile
She lives with her lips
Make up, she's in denial
Different hands on the hips
She says they're all the same
Actions force them away, who's to blame?
Cry to a new silhouette
Change your mind? Never
See what you get

Look inside yourself, it's everyone but you
What once was lost can't be found in him, it's true
Rise up in the mirror, tears down your face
Is there anything left? Just another empty space.


Burning up, dry in the rain outside
He sees everything lost in the distance
For an instance she flashes in his eyes
To his surprise and her demise
Love is lost, He looks at the ground
A place to rebuild is found...

Kissing the Prince.

He's a frog thats been kissed with no luck.
You can kiss a prince but he may not be out to fuck.
When will you believe in reality?
At first glance your mind says this man's a threat.
The thought was killed by inquisitive thrills.
Now girl you've made your bed.

The hurt is so fresh in mind.
Fresh in mind.
A poor judgment, cold inside.
Cold inside.
The decisions been made.
Enjoy where you've laid.
Cause your regret will tear you from the inside. The inside.

I'd like to say I hate you.
I'd love to say I don't know you.
Now that your shadow's gone let me forget you.
Liquor fueled nights based on lifelong fights have a shortlived remedy with you.
Your problem's bred by low esteem and a random's lips taste so familiar.

The hurt is so fresh in mind.
Fresh in mind.
A poor judgement, cold inside.
Cold Inside.
The decisions been made.
Enjoy getting laid.
Cause your regret will kill you from the inside. The inside.

What will you do when you're dying inside?
Cause your infected with them and no cure in sight.

The life you picked was so selfish, you found.
Now look at me from the ground.
Beg. Cry. Fall Apart.
Plead for forgiveness like I want you to.
Beg. Cry. Fall Apart.
What's that? I can't hear you.
No longer fear you

The decision's been made.
Enjoy where you've laid.
He was once a great man but so easily damaged from inflicted pain.
You've soiled a life and planted your disease.
Live what you call a life.
Forever trapped and never freed.