Withdraw

Sunset...Here come's the darkness
There is something inside me that I cannot escape.
I wish I could kill it with a bullet but I'm too afraid.
I just want to be me again
My body and mind, an enemy.
No longer a friend
Can I kill whats inside and not have to ascend?

Chemicals burning my veins
I can stop but its unbearable
Without the pills there is pain
With out the drugs can I sustain?
Hollow I am, sad I am not
Indifferent I am, happy?
what is that? I forgot


Chemicals leaving my veins
pills down the drain
fuck the anxiety, fuck the depression, fuck the prozac
Im fighting for me, fighting for life, fighting my way back
this is life, taking a deep breath, future, love
sunrises... this is life... love

Twist

Look me straight in the eyes
Say you love me
But stay so far
smile and laugh
as you stab a knife into my heart
watch the blood trickle down
color leaves, white I am
holding on, pleading
why oh why


Trust I gave
betrayal received
knife in the heart
I'll never believe
I want you, I need you
twist the knife
body loses life
I still love you
dont leave
stay, please

the lessons you teach
I don't want to believe
keep twisting the knife
I dont believe
I still bleed
please don't leave