Controlled Burn

Sunset shines brighter than sunrise
For the shattered souls and the tired eyes
Blood flow stops. Reverses
Lips are blue from neglect
They are gone forever. Lay down. Sob. Reflect.

Stop loving that person
Put a knife in their back
It's what you deserve
If you inflict the pain
It will hurt you more
Feel it burn your eyes
Burn your skin
Burn your soul
Burn the hollow shell that you're in

The past was what the past is
It's all over now
Nothing but ashes

I will miss you

I got your package today. It's the first time I have cried since I made the decision. Whether It was the right decision or not.... I don't know. I have never faced a question so hard to answer. The reason I did this was because the question presented itself, that's reason alone. It will hang on my shoulders for a long time. I have never been treated so well in my life as you treated me. I never deserved it. I never will. I always said I would do my best to make you happy, at the time I thought this was true. I was just lying to myself, and soon to figure out, I was lying to you too. I never did try hard enough did I? Maybe 90% of the time. I made sure it was my job to keep you smiling. I lived to see you smile, but the pain of seeing you in tears was too much for me to handle. I had seen it too much to go on. You are one of the most beautiful people I know and I do care about you, It hurt me so much to do what I did. But I can never be with you. I look into the future and the pieces just don't fit. Sometimes I wish all the pain you have experienced on account of me could be transferred to my mind, So i could deal with what I have done and you could be happy again. People like me are never happy anyways, and you deserve all the greatest things. I know you hate me, and I understand. Just know that I hope you get everything you want out of life and you get to the places you want to go...... It is hard looking at a computer screen with my eyes clouded with tears. You are beautiful, you are amazing, you are funny, you are a great person. Don't ever think otherwise. I've seen it first hand. I'm just not man enough to appreciate it. I'm sorry

I will miss you

Blind to your words

Clouded breathe fogs my bedroom window
Write your message in reverse
Heavy eye lids never see the sign
As the window returns to clarity
I keep hearing the words
You keep voicing
There is no hand in my hand
Just the idea of it happening
There is no caress at the end of a long day
Just a thought
Your lips are not touching mine
You just think about it
Your words are not good enough
They never were
I need your touch
To know that your real
This time around will be the last
So show me real
Stay outside my bedroom window
Keep your love on hold
The heart you want
Does not have a pulse...